Warm up

It was more or less as I expected, there were some surprises, good ones and not so good ones. In the end I got what I was willing, yes it might be possible. Now I have a better ideia about the path I should follow. Of course it is not definitive, in fact neither the current project is something I could be sure about.
Next week it begins my future, my future for the next five years, I hope. Even though I wish the first phase will last only two years.
Frankly, I didn't understand nothing about the talk, however I understood almost everything...

The day I was xenophobic

The other day I was attending just an ordinary class, where it was being solved some ordinary exercises. The professor asked us to go to the blackboard to show our solutions. To my amazement all volunteers were foreingers and since they're not the majority of the students (although probably make up 30-40%) it somehow started to annoy the nationals (that for sure were ashemed), besides that the professor was telling us some jokes with respect to this situation: 'Hey, won't we redeem?' 'Maybe I should teach in their language.' (Most of them speaks a close language to ours that are understandable by both sides).

Then I decided to solve one problem (I was delaying my appearence because of my shyness) and join the humorous spirit, it's needless to say that I've never been good with jokes (I mean jokes understandable by others), and let this: 'So let's listen for a while our mother tongue'.

Yeah, I was too naive. Less than some minutes after a foreinger was questioning my solution, in fact there was nothing wrong but certainly it was not well organised. I tryed to explain to him, however there was no way, he ignored me. The professor also complained about my organization and told me to sit down.

I  really felt terrible. I realized I had been misunderstood. I, who came here afraid with respect to the  so called prejudices my "countrymen" are subject, was the person to mistreat those who are in a harder situation  than I.
I, who wish to be "the foreinger" soon...

I sincerely hope my relationship with them is still able to go back to the square one.

Goobacks, Sieg Heil.

Your swimming pool is full of rats

This is a make it happen city. Depending on your focus, background and of course a piece of luck you can get all sort of accomplishments you could imagine, you could touch the sky.
Because of that a lot of people from countless places come here in the hope to achieve their goals, be them megalomaniac or just an attempt to survive. It should come as no surprise that the last case fits for the majority and that many ones fail.
Between these losers there many from my native region that usually lack in education what reinforces the stereotype widespread throughout the country and that might give place to prejudice behaviors from the locals. On the other hand, those who come here need to understand that they're not in their homeland, so they shouldn't live like if they were there, and compare all the time the two places, that's not a good thing to do if an adjustment is desired.

Naturally the failness doesn't affect only my countrymen but I have to stress here how endemic it is and how crazy is the fact that it turned to be a common part of our daily lives. In the land of opportunities the hell is closer than expected at first sight. To put it bluntly there are a plenty of homeless people and this number is also going through the roof.

So, why am I writing about this? Shouldn't I be accustomed to this problem since I've seen it for a long time? Isn't it a part of mankind's History? Do I really believe it might be solved some day? With what price? You see, if everybody had access to our idealized world the Earth wouldn't resist and since we have to meet some left paradigms...

The fact is that it somehow bothers me. But what will I do? Will I really try to get involved with a real action to at least relief this problem? Well, wouldn't you know it? Tomorrow I'm going to have a class, then I, the "pilantra", need to sleep well, it's getting late, that's time to turn a blind eye to this issue. Good night.

The last day before the day after tomorrow

That's it, it comes time to go back to reality, the hard work schedule that is the main reason why I'm here and that in last instance might allow me achive, in the future, what in present time is one of my ultimate goals.
I can say out loud that I've passed the first challenge  and that's make me really proud of myself. Now I'm more confident about my ability to deal with some unexpected situations.
However, this step was just the beginning, I still have a long road until I will finally be able to say that this was a good battle. I shouldn't let me put myself down or sabotage my plans by returning to old patterns.
I'm still the same guy, but now I'm more conscious about the path I have to follow if I really want to get the transformation.

On the other hand, now I also understand why people use to create blogs when they decide to change their lives deeply. They're just like prisoners that want to not lose their own images about themselves, they just want to put it clear to themselves what they are in essence. Of course,  we're talking basically about chemical reactions and I'm letting mylself to get a little hangover, nonetheless  that's what make us human beings, for while it's not time to deny our nature and there's still time to fix the remaining points later...
I'm afraid I'm going to regret this post in the future, I've never opened my thoughts so explicity.

After all , funny enough, I still live in a cave, it is only a little larger, or maybe not.

Is it worth to less free time?

Hey there, so today I've been deciding to write something more abstract and related to "pseudo-intelectualism", an area where I'm an expert, but then... Guess what! It appeared a possible opportunity to bring me back to our concrete and capitalist world that might enhance significantly my wage, and make some old dreams true.
Of course, like everything else in our lives there are good points and bad points about this news. The positive aspect is almost entirely focused on financial issues: This new income would allow me to have a better quality of life with respect to my feeding, housing and vacation, since I would finally be able to travel to some places I've been wondering for ages (and these trips would allow me to think more grounded to reality about my current plans to my future career, although I've always loved to dream without any foundation).
So, based in what was written above, it stands to logic that I've found gold at the end of a rainbow or perhaps I won the lottery or I'm involved with some criminal business (since I'm saying that there are bad points at least I'm not so cold...), but I have to spoil your glamorous thoughts and go back to my proletarian background, I won't become a millionaire or even rich, I will continue being a middle-class with their ordinary desires and fears with their not black-white nor colorful lives, I will continue to talk bad about our government because I won't depend too explicity on it neither it will be almost needless for me.
The fact is that I would have to work, not a hard work, it would have a flexible schedule, but for sure my free time would less, as the time available for my other main activity that current pay my bills, what certanally won't make my "boss" happy and might be a burden to my current project.
Frankly, it's totally possible to run my life with my actual salary, but I don't want to miss an apparently so suitable chance like this one. I've already given up a nice opportuny to finally emancipate completely in order to achive another goal and then it comes an opportunity to join these two things and  would I give up again? Not at least try to see what would happen? I believe that's time to first act, and then think about it, I've already got lost in my theoretical world too much, at least I will have more experience after this selection. I should allow myself to regret later...

PS: Probably you might realize I'm trying to convince myself to apply for this position, I hope I succeeded. If I post whithin two or three months from a heavenly resort you may be sure that's what happened...

Hello world

Hey guys, although I'm not expectig anyone would read this. Finally I've decided to launch a blog, it may seem odd in current times where twitter and vlogs are more popular, but my intentions here is to practice my writing in English, since I'm not a native from a English speaking country. I know I could do this in a more private way, however I believe that having a blog will force myself to have more commitment to this goal.
If somehow you found out this blog (and are wasting your time here) you might be asking yourself: What? How would you improve given that no one will correct your mistakes? And I would say: I still don't know, but at first glance I think this is the best approach available for me at the moment, anyway I'm also getting some help from google!

So, which kind of contents this blog will verse about? Probably about some ordinary (or not so common) things that come to my mind and I found them worthy enough to write about, therefore don't take this blog serious, it's going to be just a hobby and an attempt to at last not feel frightened when a I have to write something in English and also improve my orthography that is lousy.

If you master English and want to give me some advices and correct me, feel free to do it, I'm here to learn.